Owner of a blank mind  

Posted by Praveen in

10 days from today, my blogging career will be 5 years old. And as the day nears, am going through my worst patch ever. As I scroll down the blog to check my last substantial entry(excluding all those travalogues and concert write ups), I see a date which came on the calender 40 days back. Though I wouldn't call this depressing, its certainly a bit alarming, considering how the words have deserted me. Not that I was churning out shakespearean classics out here in this space, but there was a certain flow and a certain confidence with which I used to sit down almost every alternate evening and type something down in notepad so that it could add to the information overload on blogs the next day. There were ofcourse passing phases which went on for a week or so and then I was back in my groove. And then came this, almost unprecedented in my life in blogs.

As I sit down and think of the various reasons, the first one I use to fool myself and all of you will be of course the world cup. Now, it started just 2 weeks back but I can always say that I was just conditioning my mind for this spectacle in the one month preceeding that. The conditioning included hunting down for the jersey(duplicate of course) of my team(Brazil) and making fun of the rival teams. This argument is of course as thin as Italy's defence line in yesterday's match. And yes, right now am stuck writing this post too. As I glance upwards I see someone trying too hard to fill space, someone trying hard to beat out big round chappathis from a very thin mix of dough. Those who are bored can stop here. Am just trying to take it out all from the system and make it flow again. You may ask, 'Why post it here, why don't you just type it out in a notepad and torture yourself?' Well, I need to because its this blog that inspires me to write and it should know when am so short of that.

Hitting a purple patch seems a distant dream. But then black patches also donot last for long. I used to give this advice to people who were having a writer's block- 'look around you. There are a million subjects to write on.' But right now when I look around, all am seeing is emptiness. A scene straight out of a sci-fi movie, with me in the middle and white space all around. In whichever direction I run, I don't see a spot. Its crystal clear. I can't even see myself, not even my hands. And no, dont make that assumption on my mental health now. I've a lot of things left to do before I take myself into an asylum. It doesn't help matters either when your head itself is an asylum. I could've taken myself to that asylum if I were the John Malkovich character in the Charlie Kauffman movie. For us lesser mortals, travelling into one's own head(or rather mind) remains an impossible affair. So, the real truth behind the blankness of my mind will remain a mystery of epic proportions. Now, let me run in search of the edge of that elusive purple patch...

your crusader Praveen

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12 comments

Wow! That's a feat Praveen! I'm hoping that the blackness does not last too long and far apart!

11:34 AM

5 years and still blogging is in itself a feat man! Mqny folks around us get fed up and leave the stage in 1-2 years.

Writers Block is a very common problem. You still got your camera and those lovely photographs to fill up the space and that is as interesting as your views on the social conundrum.

Hey, why the Malayalam blog has gone silent? Puthiya avatharangale okke kittiyille valichu keeran? Silsila hai silsila... :P

6:12 PM

Uhm...dudde u need a reality check. MY blog is a little over a year old and I am already lagging in posts.... I NEED INSPIRATION.. thats my excuse :P

so well.... dont learn from me basically! :P :P

12:26 AM

But looking at how you've just kept going for the past 5 years, may be - just may be - you can allow yourself this odd blip.

... That said, may those words come right back. More power to your mighty pen.

Peace.

6:39 PM

5 years is ultra cool man...and i never seen a bad work here...

And hey u can shift from 'as weak as Italian defence' to 'as weak as English defence'

Hey try spending more time for yourself...silent and self reflecting. There are thousands of things to write about.

A blogger's block is a figment of imagination

12:02 PM

@Rakesh
Me too hope the same

@scorpiogenius
malayalam blogum nirakkan ideasil illathayirikkunnu chetta :D

@aswathy
dont learn from me too :D

@kartz
Well..those words gave me some comfort:D

@Jon
hehehhee...english defence!true

spening a lot of time with myself..tht am getting bored of myself:P

8:53 PM

From the famous Bhagvad Gita "This too, shall pass"

4:51 AM

Congrats Dear...!! 5 Yrs..o ma..!!
and spcl congrats 4 writing those thought provoking mails.. ofcourse u r gonna continue with ur 6th n 7th yr n...on :)

7:29 PM

Hey! I went through this phase very earlier in my blog-life which is just 10 months old. When i started i felt there are so many topics to write but as soon i i completed 3 blogs in 3 months i felt i was running out of steam and topics etc. i started doubting my ability to write nevertheless i try to keep on writing whenever i am free and when i get the complete blog in amonths time and i post the same.! :-)

1:24 PM

5 years!!! Amazing journey too!

Congrats!

And wishes, loads of them, that you find the purple patch asap :)

Even without it, you write awesome, btw :) :)

4:57 PM

A tag, to keep you occupied, and find a purple patch?
Here

10:07 PM

@vinay
hope it will :D

@devil incarnate
yes...hope to continue beyond 50 ;)

@jagannathan
Its good to get used to it quite early;)

@usha m'am
thanks a lot :)

will take up the tag :D

10:05 PM

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